Why did you leave?
July 16 2023

You walked me to the train and then left, saying you couldn't bear to watch me leave. The train was packed, heading from Moscow to Yaroslavl. I found a seat at the back, where three seats faced two near the carriage entrance. I wasn't one to easily cry in public, but this time I couldn't hold back. Tears welled up in my eyes, and there was no stopping them

SA club
March 16 2021

For many years, my dream was to commit suicide. I had meticulously planned how I would do it. I knew what music I would listen to, the time of a day, even the time of a year. It might sound awful, but for me, it was the most luminous thought, as looking forward to a New Year celebration